I've come to the "conclusion" (Conclude it now, think its dumbest thing iv ever heard later) that a lot of what drives me is a really strong need to love. I dont knw if i need to love mroe than i need to be loved... but its a much bigger part of what drives me than i reaized. Actually, i lie. Ive always known this was important for me... but i guess im just reminded. So i attach to people and ideas pretty quickly as an outlet for it--Not that i am perpetually falling in love with people or ideas, I just...

more on this when i can write and not feel like an idiot.