I decided i dont like this blog site. But i dont know any others, so this will do.

Tonight was interesting. ashley jay jim josh and erin saw Bombity of errors which was hilarious. Then we went to grumpys where we met up with Ashley Ali Jacqui Tim R. Drinking was slow and I never really got even a good buzz, but I did get a chance to talk with Ali which was cool. Erin and Jacqui went to one end of the bar to have 'girl talk' while the rest of us stood by another table and talked abotu how dumb 'girl talk' was. I only really feel compelled to write because the walk/ ride back was interesting.

It was kind of chilly but while erin and jacqui walked in the back off on their own, the rest of us were chatting and i felt really comfortable. Then we got on the drunk bus and as it turned out, Jacqui and I sort started our own little conversation. It felt really great to talk to her without things being awkward for once. She seems liek shes in a weird place, but that doesnt surprise me. She feels ignored usually, and now that everyone is making a big deal about her and josh (awkward for them) its the wrong time/ wrong kind of attention. I feel equally bad for josh. All of their friends mean well, but dont seem to get that "helping" them jsut makes things more uncomfortable. I guess i shouldnt say they, Im sure i dont really help.

All that to say this. I feel like people worry about other people too much, and i feel like its mostly motivated out of something selfish. I cannot for the life of me figure out why it matters to person A how person B reacts with person C. or for that matter, how person B will react when person C talks with person D. Its like a huge deal to know whats going on with people, when we clearly have enough problems dealing with out own relationships. the way i see it, its easier to deal with other people than ourselves because there arent really any implications or responsibilies when youre not dealing with yourself. Hopefully, i can try and deal more with myself and less with other other people. I dunno.